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read tian’s email regarding family and friends, and, strangers

"..it’s our own family members that we’ll never get to know. i mean just how many of us share everything with our family? at least i know i dont. i know and understand some of my friends more than their families will ever know.."

"..is it the comfort knowing that friends are ultimate stranger thus we r so willing to share our deepest darkest secrets with friends instead of family?"

so this thought went through my mind..

yup, i dun share stuff with my family too. if you are my friend, you definitely know what i mean.

let’s say, u are feeling really down today, and u happen to be with this newly acquainted friend, and just so nice at the moment, your frequencies clicked well, you start pouring your feelings to him/her, instead of someone closer to you.

sometimes, when your best friend asks you, you might probably say, "well, i’m alright, will be ok soon~ i promise," it’s not because you dun wanna share, but u want your friend to worry for you less. and prolly you both have this mutual feeling of understanding. when you’ve overcome it, then you’ll start telling your friend what has really happened. of cos there are always cases where you’ll reach ur best friend immediately after something happened too. guess it all depends on the situation.

as for family, perhaps they won’t even ask, and even if they do, they won’t probe at all, if you chose not to say. you prolly won’t even allow the chance to display your problems on your face in front of your family.

so i agree with tian, when it comes to the darkest secret, your family might be the last to know.

then i ponder, family — it starts with two persons. two strangers.

you meet, then you share, when u share, you understand each other, maybe cos you understand each other so well, you need no more talk. the bond is there already. it’s not totally about telepathy. it’s a mutual feeling. when you’ve reached that stage, prolly you are married to each other. then this whole mutual feeling is extended with the birth of your children. prolly it’s within them, this mutual feeling makes them go out, to meet strangers, then make friends, then find a partner and the whole cycle repeats.

considering to extend another 2 weeks. at least 3 days of double pay. in dilemma.

more money = less time

how would you choose — $1000 more cash or 2 more weeks?

at least i was asked to help make a decision. at least i was thought of before the decision is made.

of cos i hope it’s 2 more weeks.

i know the reason why there’s a need for more money. the answer is me, and USA.

how to answer the dilemma…

can this june pass quickly. and august never come? please. i only have july.

thanks to jane who took part in the human net in the opening of the Singapore Arts Festival, i went along with zach to padang and watched the performance. one word to describe - great! =)

the first item was pretty amazing. the use of a screen, lights and shadows. it’s hard to say here cos i think you gotta see with your own eyes. one sentence to fill it all, it’s amazing how you play with shadows.

i especially liked the part where the La Fura crew did the wheel. it’s amazing to see how it moved around in the mid-air and the crew had to do stunts while the wheel turned. a moment they were far from me, and another moment they were just above my head. so close that i hoped i could be a part of them, having fun.

yupyup, dear jane, don’t doubt, that’s you. awkward posture it seems. but, heh, you did wonderful job! =) proud of ya!

my favourite fireworks marked the end of the performance. awwww~

hmmm, to end.. can someone someday bring a measuring tape to me and ask to measure my arms and also my legs to see if they are of the same length.hmmm~

shopped the supermarket once again. picked up the items we needed for the dinner. looked for toothbrush. 2 of the similar kind. off we went, to his house. slpt a lil, mingled a lil, filled up the photo album. 126 photos over the past one year. slpt a lil again.

5.00 pm. — let’s get ready for dinner. cut cut cut, wash wash wash, cut cut cut. heat the pan. put the oil. down the food. cook cook cook. yum yum yum =)

food tasted not bad. better because it’s by us. we did for each other. and because it’s a special day, it made everything feels great.

time had come, 10.10 pm. the moment. =) i forgot my card, but surprisingly he had his. done on a plain white paper. with words that made me feel warm and loved. it’s something he rarely does. i appreciate it.

it is just that simple. that simple =)

supermarket-shopping is fun! =) cooking cooking cooking! la la la..

countdown.

3rd year.

this cat is pretty. too bad she’s a little dirty. prolly cos she stays near the coffee shop!

i love her eyes.

can some nice soul teach me how to draw my eyes with eyeliner and mascara, just as nice as this cattie does?

hmm… how about just you, miss cattie =)

i like to go to this ice cream uncle who sells ice cream at aljunied mrt bus stop. he charges one dollar for a cup. and the no of scoops of ice cream he gave is always alot!!! I simply love him to bits! he’s just a simple old man who sells ice cream. though he don’t speak alot, but i can feel his good character somehow, a kind old man. =)

a cup of ice cream a day keeps sooyun happy all day! =)

what’s wrong with me.

after the bday party for my two friends, i lost my appetite.

i’m hungry, but when i eat, i eat little. can’t finish it all.

i feel nauseous, and feel that my blood circulation is not good at all.

what’s wrong with me.

am i too tired-out?

one week ago, i received an email from my service coordinator. it said, we’ll be going to a post-production house today from 1 to 5pm. well, not that bad, cos class ends at 12.30pm.

but that was it. other than the address and time and venue, there was nothing else in the email.

so, my friends and i went to consult our consultant right after class.

"will there be anyone to bring us there? or we are supposed to get there by ourselves?"

"i’m not sure."

"then will anyone from that production house receive us? or we can just go to the office and and say we are here for some visit?"

"hmmm someone will be there. but i’m not sure who."

huh?????? what the!

"there’ll be a bus at 1.45pm to bring you there."

well not so bad, but who do we look for when we saw the bus?

"hmmm, someone."

WHO THE HELL IS THAT SOMEONE?!

alright, so we got on the bus. waited for 10mins. No one else. do we continue to wait? or should we just leave? what would you do?

anw, we decided to ask the bus uncle to leave since no personnel is going to tell us what we are going to do. we shall make the decision on our own!

so we got there. went to the reception. the receptionist was unsure what was going on. we were like, "huh?" and so we waited. okay. someone by the name of billy acknowledged that we were supposed to be there for some visitation. then we waited again.

then we were brought to the conference room. waited. then there! the "person-in-charge" from our side came. and he questioned us.

"why did you leave without waiting for me?"

excuse me sir, how do we know we are supposed to wait for you?! nobody told us that. we only know there is this "SOMEONE". and whether this SOMEONE will be waiting for us at the bus, or at the post-production house, we do not know! "

"you know there are other students who are supposed to come for this trip as well?

now u made us take the cab. and the bus uncle should know he should wait for me! if he is unsure he should have contacted me!"

okay, there were 3 students behind. oh, so now the fault lies with bus uncle. but apparently, bus uncle was just as lost as us because he doesn’t know who he should contact. hmmm~

"how could you leave the place without the person-in-charge and come on your own? you should have some common sense that you should wait for the coordinator and then leave the place! you people are adults, you should know what to do."

hello? we waited in the bus till near 2pm. there was no one except us.  btw, yup we are adults, of cos we know what we should do. when nobody’s going to tell us what to do, we make our own decisions. we gave you chance man, we did wait for you! so what’s wrong with making the decision to leave when there was nobody else except us? you want us to wait till someone comes? so if no one comes, we will wait till tomorrow morning ya?

maybe we did make a rash decision on leaving, maybe we should have waited ten minutes more. but there’s no one we can look for anyway, since our coordinator knows no one for us to contact!

whatever.

does it sound like it’s the coordinator’s fault because she knows nothing!

at first we all thought that our coordinator was too new and she couldn’t do her work. she knew nothing. and imagine the blur look on her face when we consulted her earlier on.

but hey, the picture gets clearer when this "person-in-charge" started bombarding us with questions and "assumptions" (note: the word is quoted because this ‘person-in-charge’ says he is not blaming us, but hmmm his tone does sound like it eh~) on our irresponsibilty on leaving without him, wasting the money on chartering a bus, paying for extra cab fee.

hey dudes there, he was not speaking softly, the doors of the conference room were open, we are all tertiary students. and the office was — quiet.

thanks so much for trying to clarify what went wrong. serious. thanks so much. we are so sorry to make you miss the bus.

well, come to think of it, this SOMEONE, which the service coordinator mentioned, plays a part too. it sounds like this SOMEONE is the organiser. and hmmm, if you are the organiser, doesn’t it make sense for you to send your messenger (in our case, the service coordinator) to pass the message to us? if the messenger has the message, she will send them to us. even if she didn’t, she would at least have an idea when we went to look for her. but apparently, she didn’t. if you are the organiser, you should have let us know who do we contact when problems crop up. but once again, we don’t know!

well..who is this SOMEONE!??????

by the way..mr person-in-charge, did you say we are supposed to wait for you at the bus? ohH~~~ wow~~ okay…and umm, mr person-in-charge, did you tell billy you are our "guardian"????? oh, and did you leave like 20min after trying to make "clarifications" regarding the bus issue?

and can someone tell me, why do i have to take the chartered bus way back and take the train which is 11 stops away from home when i can jus hop the nearest mrt at the post-production house which is 5 stops away??????? let me tell you why, because mr person-in-charge told us we MUST get back — the bus was paid for a two-way trip. and pls, someone tell me, we are adults or we are kids?? the person-in-charge said we are adults, but we have to obediently listen to him and take the bus back. no, we can’t make the decision to travel home by our own means. no no, we can’t. alright, i think let’s just go back. not because we listen to the person-in-charge ya, we just don’t want to get our bus uncle into trouble. but where’s our guardian when we went back! he’s gone!

oh what the crap!